You promised forever. You lied.

thank you everyone. For everything. even if I do not know you. You have done something in your life to help someone. Some random act of kindness you have done, has helped perhaps save someone's life. Together we create memories. Together we create lives. So thank you. Everyone.

I know I have been gone far too long, but with summer here I hope to be on more

Hey people!!! I know that I haven't been on in FOREVER, and I sincerely apologize. I had a rough couple of weeks followed by some pretty heart stopping amazing ones. For those of you who care, my boyfriend and I are now back together and happier than ever. My life is finally falling into place and after months of heartbreak and scars and crying, I can honestly say that I'm happy. Truly and honestly completely happy. For all of those out there that want to give up hope, I tell you now that I used to be one of you. I wanted to just completely give up. I thought that I didn't have anything left to live for. But if you can just be strong enough to hold out, just for a little, you can learn to open your eyes and eventually you can find a place that makes you feel safe. You can be happy. In weakness we can find strength.
 
sorry for those of you that don't really care, and I know nobody probably even read this.
 
oh well, it feels good to be back
 
<3

too many choices. too little time.

forget me. now. do it. no more remembering. its too late.

remember me?
you loved me once.
do you still?

OMIGOD THIS IS BEYOND TRUE

why does love have to be so difficult

im sorry this set sucks.i will delete it later. but i really need to say something.
 
ok, so about a week ago my boyfriend left for college. he is now about 1600 miles away from me. when he left, we decided that it would be better for us to breakup but stay friends. its not working very well. we still say "i love u" but we hardly have any time to talk.i feel like he doesnt really care anymore and that its probably time for us to startthinkingabout moving on. he agrees. last night we were going to talk. but he had so much homework and i needed to study. so we didnt. at around 10 pm it hit me that it was always going to be like this. we never have time. we are both it advanced courses and i can feel us drifting apart. he comes back down to texas in a few months, and so i said texted hiim and told him flat out that this wasnt going to work. and that i would see him in 2months. and to have fun in college. the only thing he replied was "ok. havefun in school. see ya" this understandably made me furious (my worst fears - that he didnt care- were realized) and soi responed saying that instead i would seehim never and telling him that i hope he has an excellent life. he responded that he willalways love me and that he misses me. he told me to enjoy school and have fun with my friends. he said he really cares about me but to not worryabout him..
 
i couldnt text him back
 
i just couldnt
 
we have to say goodbye
 
and i know that
 
but one thing he said he always loved about me was when i sent him random text messages about my day or things that i thot were cool. so im going to write them all down. pen to paper. all of them. and then im going to send it to him. so he will have something of me.
 
one last chance
 

one last memory

my life is falling apart..im falling again